Growth: Learning To Be More Of Myself

My entire life I have struggled with truly being who I am. I grew up completely lost as a girl, young woman, and grown woman. I felt like I had no direction; Well I had direction within myself but I was to afraid to follow through because of feeling discouraged all the time. I feel like I didn't have the true support..

But let me give you a little back story on this title. I had a hard time with myself growing because I was picked on and felt like I couldn't do anything right. Yes, I have made my mistakes and not afraid to admit that but I am human even though this all started way before I made any mistakes in life.

As a child I remember wanting to be a singer and dancer cause I loved doing it. But I was talked about so much as a kid I gave upon everything I tried to do. Everything I want to do I gave up on as a kid. In my teenage years I was even more confused because I moved to another state and I felt more alone than ever. I acted out because of being scared and I felt like I was never heard.

Getting through all this was very tough for me. It was tough because I was still having moments of not believing myself or who I was a woman even being a mother.

One day I finally had enough I had of enough of being sad I didn't want to feel like that anymore it wasn't healthy for me or my son. I had to put in the work to get myself better. Not saying it was easy because its not easy when your surround by negative situations or people. But I put in that work I started meditating more I started eating a little healthier. Even as I write this blog post I'm still working on me and finding the courage to understand who I am as a woman and as a mom. My son deserves the best version of me he deserves a mom that loves herself unconditionally. I want to be that mom for my child and for myself. I will continue to use this plat form also as a journal to write my thoughts and share more about me with you. I hope you enjoy this small post but I will dive deeper into more of growing as a person.